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Random Thoughts on a Windy Day

I just saw a bolt of lightning in the distance and silently squealed with kid-like delight. I love storms, at least the kind where they’re just a little scary like a good rollercoaster or a solid horror film rather than the sort where they threaten lives or to blow away childhood homes.

There’s a storm brewing on the horizon now, one they’ve been promising for days that keeps getting delayed for whatever reason the weather does things, and I sort of feel like that’s my life right about now.  I’m not even going to attempt to form this into a cohesive post today, but here are some thoughts currently swirling around in my brain.

Nicholl deadline is in 4 days, & other important ones follow in quick succession.  Meaning my view for the weekend will be variations of this.

Screenwriting at Starbucks

A screenwriter at Starbucks? How original!

Self-employment tax is a real kick in the teeth, isn’t it?

Assuming there’s no relationship disaster between now and the clock ticking over to Saturday, I’ve got a six-montherversary tomorrow. Haven’t had one of those in… well, I’d've been a senior in high school, and I had my 10-year reunion last year, so… Well, it’s been a while. And that’s a bit weird. But mostly just pretty wonderful.

On the other hand, the boyfriend seems to think he can, as he put it, “roflstomp” me at Super Smash Bros. So, that relationship disaster could be looming after all when this lady & I kick his arse.

Ditty & Zelda – A Match Made in ArseKickingdom

Ditty & Zelda – Coming Soon to an Arse-Kicking Near You Especially if Your Name is Tyler & You are Dating Ditty

My mom keeps teasing me with offers to sell me her iPad and then backing out. Next thing I know she’s going to attach it to a fishing pole and dangle it barely out of my reach just for kicks.  Right this very minute, I’ve got an e-mail from her that says, “It’s very possible I could sell you my iPad.” And the subtext to that is, “And it’s also very possible I will NOT sell you my iPad! BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!”  I just don’t know how much longer my heart can take this cruel, cruel game.

I took part in a photoshoot with some of my fellow freelancing friends the other day.  Amy, my DP for STILL (which is coming out of hiatus and going back into post-production in May, so help me God!), had the brilliant and terrible idea to do a sort of video business card thing. Brilliant because, well, it is. Terrible because it required me to be in front of the camera, thus re-proving to myself that I am meant to be behind it. The worst part was I got my self-written lines right on the first take, but it was too windy & didn’t take. So I then proceeded to botch the next three attempts and became the only person of our quintet to drop curse words for the day.  So that was fun.

The Crew

Here’s some street art I found that seemed pretty appropriate given my failure to maintain on-camera composure.

Street Art - Photograph by Elizabeth Ditty

Lastly, I’ve been a homeowner for a week now. Feels a bit funny when everyone offers a hearty congratulations considering I’ve been living here for seven years & just bought the place from my parents, but I guess it’s still a good thing. If you consider massive amounts of debt you’re contracted to pay off over the next 30 years of your life a good thing anyway.

Coffee's for Closers.

Confession: I bought this drink just so I could take this picture and caption it "Coffee's for closers."

And hey, the sun’s out again. Go figure. That’s it for me, folks. Have a lovely weekend. Enjoy the last bits of April, since the rest of it disappeared to who knows where!

P.S. — My friend Matt is doing his first movie review assignment for Screened today, so stay tuned to his twitter to see the article, and check out his blog for some stellar film analysis in the meantime.  Also, my friend Stuart has a collection of dark short stories being featured for free on Amazon today, so do check it out!

Learning to Herd Cats

So, this year I’ve been lucky enough to be able to ramp up my freelance work significantly. I was worried at first that it would use up my creative juices and that I wouldn’t have anything left over for screenwriting and other fiction.

But then I remembered that creative writing does not steal juice from other creative writing.  (And as someone somewhere at some point once said, “All writing is creative writing.)  Just like actual muscles, creative muscles get stronger with more use.

What has been an issue is time.  It’s hard to figure out how to ration your time when everything feels like a priority.

Let’s Define Some Priorities

The day job pays my bills and ensures I have health insurance, so it’s a priority. My screenwriting is my passion, so it’s a priority.

The freelance stuff is something I enjoy and feel compelled to pursue for a variety of reasons, so it’s a priority.

Working out and not eating everything that pops into my mind or line of sight keeps me healthy, my brain functioning better (endorphins? yes, please!), and my clothes fitting (and since I threw out all my old clothes in bigger sizes, this is important), so it’s a priority.

Chipotle & Starbucks - A Writer's Best Friend

Feeling justified at being facebook friends with people you only know because they work at Starbucks and Chipotle is totally normal, right?

A social life of some sort is important because it gives me forces me to take a break from my workaholic tendencies and interact with people other than the awesome folks at Starbucks and Chipotle . Plus my boyfriend is cute and I like to look at him. So that’s a priority.

Boyfriend: Bane or Boon for Productivity?

To Do
Get boyfriend to take semi-serious picture. - Check!
Make smiles a priority! - Working on it!

Priority Management — aka, Herding Cats

I could go on, but I think you get the picture.  I don’t have the answers yet.  Working 12-14 hour days is my norm right now, and I constantly alternate between feeling like I should be doing more with my time and wishing I had four to eight more hours in the day. And I know it’s the same for a lot of working writers and other creatives out there.  So help me out.  Tell me how you’re keeping your head above water so I can steal it.  Here are a few tactics I’m making use of at the moment.

Google Docs

I’m a total spreadsheet nut, and gDocs is the best option for me because I can access it wherever I am. I have a multi-page spreadsheet with every single freelance item I have due, when it’s due, how long it takes me, how much I’m charging, and how many words the final product is (if applicable). When an item has been paid, I move it to another page, and I keep another page with projected income for the month.

Evernote

Evernote is where I create my Weekly Goals.  I try to keep them to about a month in advance so I can add future tasks and events. I have several categories on each Goal Note, starting with a variation on the GITS 1-2-7-14 method and including each freelance item I have scheduled for the week plus other goals like work outs, meals I want to cook, and other goals (like “vacuum,” a box that has remained unchecked for longer than I will ever admit to beyond warning you to watch out for the fur tumbleweeds blowing across my parlor floors). If I have an event scheduled, like a birthday party or a family get-together or a special date night, I’ll add it under the Other Goals because checking off boxes is inexplicably satisfying.

Post-It Note To-Do Lists

This is how I prioritize for the day, and it gives me a chance to check off even more boxes (or line through items, depending on the mood I’m in, because I like to stay unpredictable like that).  This is also a good way to keep myself from assigning 87 tasks a day because you can only fit at most about 40 on a standard-sized Post-it. That is almost a joke. I mean, it’s true, but I try to keep it closer to about 10 — and that’s still overkill if we’re being honest.  But it’s a process, people.  I like post-its because they also fit perfectly inside or on the cover of my pocket moleskine notebook that goes with me everywhere.

So that’s me.  And it’s sort of working.  Most of the time.  For now.  What’s working for you all?  How do you define your priorities, and how do you prioritize them?  Give me some tips!

Juggling & Creative Juju

Lately I’ve been learning to juggle. {Maybe I should learn to actually juggle. That’d be a neat party trick. If I ever got invited to parties.}

Here are my balls. {Get your minds out of the gutters, you saucy sillies.}

  • I work your typical, 40-hours-a-week, non-creative, cubicle job. And full disclosure, it can be, well, emotionally challenging.
  • I recently took on what I think can be called a load of freelance writing work.
  • I’m still pursuing the whole crazy screenwriting dream.
  • I’m supposed to be finishing a short film.
  • I’m trying to keep in shape & to lose approximately 7 pounds in order to fit into the bridesmaid dress I ordered for my sister’s wedding because I’m silly & stubborn & demanded the size I thought I should have rather than the one I measured for post-holiday-binges-and-Melting-Pot.
  • I like to see movies and watch a handful of TV shows as well as read a variety of books, in my efforts to be culturally aware, artistically fulfilled, and to just effing relax from time to time.  Sometimes these activities are combined with one of my favorite pastimes of Hanging Out With My Boyfriend.
  • And then there’s the effort to maintain some semblance of a social life by seeing Other Human Beings in a non-work environment from time to time.

And what I’m finding is that’s quite a lot of balls. {Out. Of. Gutters!}

For a while, I was trying to make myself adhere to the brilliant GITS 1, 2, 7, 14 Method, but it just became too much, and I’d often find myself staring at my computer screen pretending to work but really accomplishing nothing or giving in and mainlining episodes of How I Met Your Mother on Netflix Instant. Once I’m out from under the pressure of the major contest deadlines, I’d like to implement it again, either in its original form or in a modified-for-me version. But right now, it just wasn’t working.

So last week I finally gave in and gave myself permission to focus my creative endeavors on One Thing. And right now, that’s rewriting SoS until it’s in ship-shape for Nicholl and Austin.  The other script I’ve got in the pipeline will wait, an

Sometimes you just have to give yourself a break and take the pups for a walk.

d it will be better for it when I can throw all my creative juju at it instead of parceling it out.  Same goes on the short film. Once the contest deadlines are out of the way, I’ll be able to breathe and dedicate creative energy to finishing post-production and taking whatever next step I feel is appropriate when the product is final.

One thing I’m trying to do this year is to be more forgiving of myself. My mantra is, “Let it be.” I’m ambitious, and I push myself hard — and these are good things when you’re chasing big dreams. But I’m also human, and I deserve to be treated as such — especially by my own self.  Some days, you just need a break. And if you’re working consistently and putting in the effort every day, then allowing those days to be what they are is totally OK.  It’s tough to find the balance between taskmaster and pushover, but I’m working on it.

I’m also working on actually scheduling in downtime on a more regular basis, because when I’m doing that, the burnout days happen less often.  So even though my to-do list seems to grow every day instead of shrink, next week I’m taking a much-needed two days off from everything to go to St. Louis with the boyfriend. No agenda (except going up in the Arch, which is non-negotiable). Just fun. I’m pretty sure I can do that. And I’m also pretty certain my creative brain will be better for it, too.

So that’s what I’m doing. Or trying to do.

The #JanPhotoaDay Challenge — And Why Photo Challenges Are Good for Writers

From time to time on Pinterest, I stumble across a daily photo challenge that piques my interest. In January, I finally decided to take the plunge and participate using fat mum slim‘s prompts as my template.

The keys for me to doing a challenge like this are 1) sharing, 2) allowing yourself to catch up, and 3) using a little creative license when you’re stuck — since the point is, after all, to be creative.

So what’s the benefit for writers? It teaches you to always be looking to your surroundings for inspiration. When you do a challenge like this, you have to find the interesting in the mundane, the beautiful in the ordinary things we see every day. Sometimes it’s simply a matter of opening your eyes or peeling them away from your computer screen; other times it’s a matter of changing your perspective.  It forces you to use your imagination, to solve problems, and to tell a tiny story with a single picture (something that is, perhaps, even more beneficial for screenwriters in particular).  Plus it’s super fun, and when you’re stuck in the Doldrums of Act Two, every little bit of fun you can pass off as creative work helps.

And bonus: If you veer toward the sentimental like I do, it’s kind of fun to have these small moments documented throughout the month to look back on.

So I’ll be participating again in February, again using fat mum slim’s handy prompts. If you’re a writer or fancy yourself creative in any way, you should definitely consider it. It’s such an easy creative outlet with nearly everyone’s phone having a camera on it these days, and you’re looking at about one to two minutes of effort a day, if that. If you’ve got an iPhone, you can use instagram to perk up your photos. I have an Android phone, so I use the Camera360 app, which has done a lovely job (though sometimes I do pull out my fancypants camera on days my phone just won’t get me the detail I want).  Here’s the list:

And last but not least, here’s what I ended up for January (click to see at proper size & not all grainy):

Fighting the Flounder

Confession: I’ve been floundering lately.

There are a few factors I credit/blame:

  • After working my arse off to rewrite my script for Bluecat’s Fellini resubmission, I ended up with a version of it that I knew was, once again, not would I felt it could be.
  • Literally the very same evening I submitted that, I had to dive straight into Round 2 of the Cyberspace Open.
  • The very next week, I attempted to start looking over another script for a quick polish before the Nicholl deadline.
  • My calendar tends to work in mysterious ways, being crammed full of events for about a week and a half straight followed by a completely dead three- or four-week period. Guess which phase it was in during all this.

These elements combined to induce the following behaviors/emotions:

  • I began to hate the script I was reading, despite the fact that it’s actually my favorite thing I’ve ever written.
  • The idea of going back to the script I submitted for Fellini actually made me feel a little physically ill.
  • Because of those two things, I essentially stopped working — I just couldn’t bring myself to do it — instead choosing to watch episode after episode after episode of Sex & the City.  I think I’ve watched four seasons in the past two weeks.
  • I began suffering some pretty severe mood swings, going from feeling very happy to extremely low. I’m generally a pretty even-keeled person (the Golden Mean has long been my motto, sometimes infuriatingly so), and it distresses me when I’m not — especially if I can’t pinpoint why.  Which of course does not help matters in the least.

Last week I finally hit a breaking point that can best be envisioned as me shouting to the heavens, “What the hell is going on with me?”

So I did what any normal* person would do. I started tracking my mood and any factors I thought might affect it in a spreadsheet.

As part of that endeavor, because I know I feel crazier when I’m not writing, I challenged myself to write 500 words a day 5 days a week.  They could be on anything at all — blog posts, journal-style pieces, travel memoir, fiction, whatever — but I needed to get back into writing in a pressure-free but consistent way.

In a week I’d written 6,321 words, and on Sunday I suddenly felt compelled to pick up my script again.  I cannot tell you how relieved I was to find I didn’t hate it anymore.  On the contrary, I feel positive about it**, and with maybe an hour of polishing, I’ll still manage to have it ready to submit to Nicholl this week.

And I’m beginning to see some patterns emerge regarding my mood that will help me going forward.  I’ll know more as the weeks pass into a month or two.  The one thing I’ve learned without a doubt, though, is this:  If I neglect to give myself a break, I will break.

This all may seem a little nutty (I’ve never denied my nuttiness and could never hope to), but I’ve found no greater tool for life than self-awareness.  Learning what makes you tick and what knocks you over is integral to creating an atmosphere in which to do your best work and to live your fullest life.  Not everyone needs a spreadsheet to do this (though I’m hoping I’m not the only person in the world who resorts to such methods), but if you, too, ever find yourself floundering, take some time to step back and examine yourself.

This can be kind of a scary thing to do, because it involves acknowledging all your feelings — uncomfortable ones included and perhaps even highlighted — along with your shortcomings.  But in doing so, you get the opportunity to figure out how to work around or even use those things to your advantage in the future.

* “Normal” here can be defined as “extremely Type A to the nth degree.”
** Also of note, Justine Musk wrote an excellent and thematically related post on “moving through the creative gap.” Check it out.

Crazy Busy Writer Driven Crazy by Crazy Protag

The first weekend in April, I was one of the lucky “100 + ties” to participate in Round 2 of the CS Open.  I think a lot of people are curious about what the feedback and scores look like for this sort of contest (I know I was, especially in prior years when I didn’t make the cut).  So, if your spirit is kindred to mine, this is the feedback I got (with a total score of 94 [22 for structure, 24 each for style, dialog and originality]), and you can read my first round entry here.

“Great scene! Very fresh, original concept and setting, solid characterizations, and fun dialogue. The only downside to this scene is that it’s a little longer than it probably should be and a version that’s about a page shorter would probably pop more. Even so, great work here!”

{A note: I realize you might read my scene and wonder, “How the hell did that make the cut when my obviously superior scene didn’t?!”  My answer to that is I’ve found these short scene competitions to be really, really subjective, which I think is to be expected especially when dealing with such a small piece of work.  There’s less to judge, and I think a big part of it is whether or not a scene is lucky enough to grab the specific reader assigned to it.  So, if you didn’t make the cut, chalk it up to good creative practice and a spot of feedback for a mere $12, and keep on keeping on. I’ve been there, too, and will be again.}

Moving onto Round 2, I didn’t have a chance to check out the premise until late Friday night, and I will neither confirm or deny the rumor that some unsavory words came out of my mouth.  Here’s the premise:

“Your PROTAGONIST is desperate and mulling a risky proposition. Taking action could result in a personal gain to the protagonist, but at great potential cost in the form of a relationship(s). Write a scene either before or after the decision has been made, addressing it in whatever manner you like. You may use any number of additional characters you desire, and again, keep in mind SUBTEXT when writing dialogue.

One other thing: your protagonist is *crazy*.”

I might have been OK had it not been for the task of inventing and writing a compelling scene about an insane protagonist in the course of a weekend — a very fully socially obligated weekend in which I also was tasked with proofreading a 32-page magazine and having just come off a couple weeks of busting my arse to take advantage of BlueCat Fellini’s resubmission opportunity.  It wasn’t until Sunday that I actually had the time to sit down, hammer out an idea, and write it.  Luckily, when I did find that time, that all came relatively easily, which was an incredibly nice gift from the muses. No clue how my take on the term “crazy” will fly with the judges, but I was mostly just pleased that I didn’t have to kill myself coming up with the scene.

So, since I posted my first one, I figured I might as well post the second one, too.  Feel free to let me know your thoughts, and if you’ve posted yours (Round 1 or Round 2), feel free to link up in the comments!

Another Weekend Bites the Dust

It doesn’t feel like I was all that productive this weekend, but I know that’s not true.  I even have proof.

First off, Matt & I recorded a new podcast, in which we discuss the Oscars and our most anticipated films of 2011.  We also accidentally found ourselves arguing about the best film of 2009.  But these things tend to happen when we talk movies.  Do check it out if that interests you, & if you do, let us know what you think.

The other thing that took up a fair chunk of my weekend was Creative Screenwriting’s Cyberspace Open, which entails receiving a prompt on Friday evening and writing a 3- to 5-page scene by Monday morning.  It’s a fun and inexpensive little contest that forces some creative calisthenics, plus they provide a little feedback on your scene, which is always a nice contest benefit.

(Also, if you missed it last week, I put up a little video of random-stranger interviews regarding Valentine’s Day.)

I haven’t posted my prior CS Open entries, but the ensuing 30-degrees-in-8-hours temperature drop is making me feel a little nutty, so why not?  Hopefully you’ll enjoy, but feel free to let me know what you think, good or bad.

Me, Interviewed

For her college computer class (do we still need those?), my sister was tasked with interviewing someone and writing a blog post about it.  Because I am, in her eyes, a paragon of truth, wonder and interesting things, she chose to interview me. Or maybe it was because I’m, you know, around. Whatever. Anyway, she asked some good questions about my travels and my writing, so I thought I’d post the Q&A here, in case anyone’s interested in what I had to say.


Kate: Why do you think you are so drawn to the city of London and its European borders?

Ditty: There’s a certain energy to London that I’ve never really felt anywhere else.  As Samuel Johnson said, “When a man is tired of London, he is tired of life; for there is in London all that life can afford.” Admittedly, I haven’t had the opportunity to visit many big cities yet, but London obviously has a very different feel to it than my native Kansas City or even Paris. There’s this wonderful dedication to the arts in London, and in Europe in general, whether it’s by way of the many museums or the gorgeous architecture or London’s fantastic theatre district.  In many ways, a city like London is always changing while still retaining this rich loyalty to its history and culture.  That paradox fascinates me.

Kate: What is one of your favorite experiences you had while you were in London and why?

Ditty: One of the most interesting experiences again relates to the theatre.  I ended up seeing Birdsong twice, which ended up being a fantastic decision because they had four actors out sick for the second performance, including one of the principal actors in the second and third acts.  This afforded me the opportunity to see how different scenes played between different actors, how they were forced to modify some scenes because they were shorthanded, and how the audience reacted differently to various aspects of the show as well as how the actors responded to the audience.  I wrote about it in a little more detail on my blog, but, in short, it was really very educational for me as an artist and entirely fascinating as an observer.

Kate: What is your least favorite?

Ditty: My least favorite was getting lost twice on the way home after having had a particularly nerve-wracked and in some ways mortifying evening.  It was snowing, and I was freezing, and I was exhausted, and I wanted nothing more to crawl into bed and turn off my brain ‘til morning.  Unfortunately, my sense of direction had other ideas, and I ended up taking a wrong turn and having to walk much farther than I should have to a tube station, and then, about 7 minutes from my bed & breakfast in Hammersmith,, I ended up hopping on the wrong bus and managed to find myself back across the river right under Big Ben.  I did eventually make it home, but it was not my finest series of moments, to say the least.

Kate: Could you see yourself making London your permanent home in the future?

Ditty: I don’t know about “permanent home,” but I could certainly see myself spending lengthier amounts of time there.  In a perfect world, I’d have a flat in London, an apartment in Paris, my house in Kansas City, and maybe a beach villa, too.  I draw different things from each place, and I’d love to be able to pick up and go wherever I’m feeling drawn in the moment.  I’d go to London for energy and inspiration; to Paris for beauty, a little existential meditation and creative focus; to the beach for a little R&R; and back home to see family and friends.

The truth is, as much as I love spending time in Europe, and as much as I’d love to do a lot more travelling, I think I’ll always consider Kansas City a sort of “home base.”  I think that’s probably a very “Dorothy” thing to say, but it’s the truth.

Kate: In your opinion, what are some specific qualities that Britain has that the United States lacks?

Ditty: Again, I’d have to point to that respect and loyalty to history, art and culture.  Europe is very proud in a lot of ways because it’s experienced so much.  There’s a great scene in the film EASY VIRTUE where Kristin Scott-Thomas’ character is berating Jessica Biel’s Larita for her suggestion to sell off the family’s land: “Coming from a country no older than the chair you’re sitting in, it seems a very practical solution.”  We do that sort of thing all the time here in the States.  We knock down buildings and build new ones instead of restoring them.  We put a much higher priority on the practical rather than the beautiful.  There are obvious advantages to those ways of thinking — forward progress is a great thing — but you lose a certain respect and appreciation for what’s come before.

Kate: Instead of going to go see major attractions such as Westminster Abbey, etc., what are some lesser known attractions in London that you particularly enjoyed?

Ditty: There’s a really interesting art/science gallery called the Wellcome Collection that’s worth checking out.  It’s sort of a nice break from the more traditional galleries and museums.  I also enjoyed a quick visit to the Old Operating Theatre Museum, where you can see a vast array of historical medical devices and instruments, as well as the operating theatre, which is exactly what it sounds like: a place where doctors could gather to watch an operation.

I’d also highly recommend catching some West End theatre.  You can get very cheap tickets for day-of shows at the TKTS booth in Leicester Square.  I think a lot of people tend to go for the big stage musicals, but the stage plays are really what I’ve enjoyed the most.  The Woman in Black is a fantastically spooky piece, and it plays at the Fortune Theatre.  The Comedy Theatre, which doesn’t necessarily stage comedies but so far in my experience has provided ambitious shows with fantastic actors, has become my favorite theatre, and it’s just around the corner from Leicester Square.  It housed my favorite shows on both trips — namely, La Bête, which transferred to Broadway shortly after I saw it, and Birdsong, which  just ended its run.

Beyond that, there’s also the highly entertaining street theatre in Covent Garden, the various markets in different boroughs, and really simply walking around and immersing yourself in the energy of London.  There’s really no better place to simply people-watch — Trafalgar Square can get particularly interesting sometimes after 10 p.m.  You can also catch red carpet premieres in Leicester Square on a pretty much weekly basis (they had the NARNIA and TRON premieres while I was there), and it’s always kind of neat to see the set-up they create (you can also glimpse the actors if you’re into that sort of thing and are willing to fight the crowds).  They went particularly all-out for NARNIA, transforming the entire square into a sort of winter wonderland, and they had these huge laser-light-show things set up for TRON, which was interesting to see.

Kate: What was one of the weirdest things you experienced on your travels?

Ditty: On my last day in London, I was wandering around my favorite places bidding them adieu, and a guy jogged up to me in Covent Garden.  He immediately started rambling about how he’d seen my magenta tights and thought I looked interesting and that he had a friend who worked in the fashion industry and that I had reminded him of her due to said tights and also my knit hat and coat.  At some point I became fairly certain he was trying to hit on me rather than pickpocket me (it’s often very difficult to tell the difference, I’ve found), but he was saying odd things, likely due to his nerves, such as I had “one playful eye,” which immediately made me wonder if I’d somehow developed a lazy eye since I’d last looked in a mirror, or that I seemed “bouncy.”  He also told me about the novel he was writing — it was his first — which sounded like it would either end up being really quite interesting or really quite terrible.  In the end, he turned out to be a nice enough guy, and he requested a hug “since we’re friends now,” and I gave him one.  He was the first native Brit to hit on me, so, despite it being really quite bizarre, I recall the memory fondly.

Kate: In a nutshell, how would you describe the people of Britain?

Ditty: Well, I can’t really speak for all of Britain, of course, but I do interact with a fair number of non-Londoners on twitter.  To sum them up, I’d have to say that, in general, they are a delightfully witty bunch, often with dry and somewhat acerbic senses of humor but with an undercurrent of real kindness beneath the stiff-upper-lip exterior.  As for London itself, it is truly a melting pot of different cultures, nationalities and personalities; there’s really no way to sum up the people of London other than to say they’re fascinating in their diversity.

Kate: You’ve also been to France, what is your favorite thing about France and why?

Ditty: Imagine your typical, entitled, stressed-out, always-in-a-rush American bustling up to a French person, who is in the midst of sipping the tiniest cup of coffee you’ve ever seen. Before the American can even get out whatever question he or she thinks is So Very Important, the Frenchman delivers a look of utmost disdain, which clearly says, without saying a word, “Chill the fuck out. There is nothing in the world that is more important at this moment than me enjoying this tiny cup of exquisite coffee — certainly not you.”  At which point, if the American is smart, he or she does indeed chill out, find a pastry or a crêpe, have a seat on a bench or at a table outside a café, and look around at all the beauty he or she was missing while busy being busy.  That is my favorite thing about France.

Kate: Would you say that the atmosphere in European countries has a significant influence on your writing? If so, how?

Ditty: Most definitely.  There’s so much beauty and energy in Europe that it’s hard not to find inspiration.  Over the three weeks I spent there this past year, I think I filled an entire moleskine notebook with observations, notions and stories, and those usually take me a good year to fill up.  The access to so much great theatre motivates me as well, and I’m actually in the very beginning stages of planning a short film inspired by a human statue I saw in Trafalgar Square.

Kate: If you could only visit one again, would you choose London or Paris?

Ditty: There is honestly, truly, absolutely no way I can make that choice, and you are a terrible person for even making me consider such a thing.  Both cities are full of meaning for me, and I can’t imagine not getting to visit both of them again multiple times throughout my life.

Kate: What should people keep in mind before traveling abroad?

Ditty: That’s a very broad question, and I think there are a lot of better resources out there for the practical side of things (when to go, what to do, what to see), but I will say this: Consider yourself a guest in someone else’s home when you travel abroad.  Be polite.  Use your manners.  Try not to inconvenience your hosts.  Try everything that’s offered to you, even if you don’t think you’ll like it, because every experience has value.  Engage your hosts when it’s appropriate, and learn everything you can without being a pest.  Don’t be afraid to ask for help, and be grateful when you receive it.  Smile.  Laugh.  And look up (and down).

Kate: What are some examples of how you “dare to be different?”
(Ditty’s Note: This is a running joke in my family ever since my fifth grade teacher told my parents I was “eccentric” and “dared to be different” during a parent-teacher conference.)

Ditty: Ha, well, there are so many examples I could give, but I fear most of them are simply me just being a bit weird rather than me actively daring to be different.  But I’ll try.  One thing that seems a bit unique is that, when I decide to do something, I do everything in my power to actually do it.  Whether it’s writing a script by a certain date or revamping my health & fitness, I seem to have a bizarre level of drive and perseverance, and that’s something I seek to cultivate.

I also do my best these days to be my authentic self, regardless of the expectations of others.  So, in that respect, it’s not that I try particularly to be different; it’s that I embrace the aspects of my personality that don’t necessarily mesh with the typical.

Oh, and I also do things like taking up horseback riding, fencing, going to London alone for my golden birthday, signing up for aerial acrobatics and pottery classes, and spearheading a sisterly helicopter trip.

Kate: What inspires you to write?

Ditty: I like to examine and attempt to explain various aspects of the human condition through storytelling.  I think it’s human nature for everyone to do that in their own way, whether it’s through art, science, politics, philosophy or religion.  For me, it’s always been writing, though I’ve been less aware of it at certain times in my life.

I was once accused of writing to escape, and writing can do that for folks temporarily, but it’s never been that for me.  Writing is a means of understanding, not escaping.  So, to answer your question as properly as I can, I guess it’s really just life that inspires me to write.  Whether it’s an overheard conversation or a weird news story or an amusing encounter or simply a poignant observation that leads to a given story, it’s always a product of the emotional core of life.

I don’t really recycle my real-life experiences as often as I recreate the emotions felt during my experiences.  And because of that, I hope that what I write is emotionally truthful even when it’s obviously a bundle of lies.  As Neil Gaiman so eloquently puts it in A Writer’s Prayer, “Lord, let me be brave, and let me, while I craft my tales, be wise: let me say true things in a voice that is true, and, with the truth in mind, let me write lies.”


Kate’s write-up (complete with unflattering pictures of me + 20 pounds) is here.

Work Like It’s Your Job

On Dec. 6, I sat in an uncomfortable chair at Heathrow Airport, munching on my last mince tart, and started outlining a screenplay.  Now, 46 days and three drafts later, I’ve sent it out into the world (via BlueCat’s Fellini Competition).  (And a massive thanks to Matt and Stuart who offered and delivered one-day-turnaround feedback for me — you guys are awesome.)

For the record, I don’t usually like to cram three drafts into six weeks.  I do, however, like to spit out first drafts in a month, and I wanted to challenge myself to meet an extremely ambitious deadline to start the year off right.  In short, I wanted to work at it like I’m already being paid to do this.

So I did.  I worked every day save two or three in that 46-day span.  I imagined myself answering to Very Important People at the end of every day.  The past two weekends have been dedicated entirely and solely to editing and rewriting.  I’ve been up past midnight (and up before six for the job that actually does pay my bills at the moment) every day this week.  I’ve spread myself really thin to get this done — and it’s been exhilarating to find I still have it in me after the creative quasi-slog of last year.  I needed to prove to myself I could still do it, and I have, and you can, too.

My point is, if you want to be something badly enough — like, say, a working writer — you have to be willing to put in the hard work.  It has to be a priority, and it has to be pursued every single day (and yes, sometimes taking a day or two to rest is part of that pursuit).  Because when we choose to be something, we’re choosing a state of activity — not stasis.  Even for those who “make it,” the pursuit doesn’t stop.  It’s constant motion, and you have to find joy in it.  As they say, it’s the journey rather than the destination that matters.

So, if you’re stalling because it’s still early in the year or you’re still recovering from the holidays or excuse 1, 2 or 3, take a moment and define your priorities.  January’s two-thirds done, and when February hits, that’s one-twelfth of the year gone.  Do you want to spend it waiting for perfect or at least comfortable circumstances?  Or do you want to get uncomfortable and triumph anyway?  The truth is, circumstances will never be perfect for any length of time that matters.  So, let’s suck it up and get to work on what we love despite the obstacles, all right?  Off you go.

The Magic of Theatre

One of the things I love most about London is the opportunity to see so much great theatre for relatively low prices (especially if one makes use of the tkts booth in Leicester Square). Between my two trips this year, I was lucky enough to 8 plays and two musicals.

(If you’re curious as to what those were: The Mousetrap, La Bête, The Woman in Black [twice], Les Misérables, Deathtrap, The Phantom of the Opera, The 39 Steps, and Birdsong [twice].)

What I’ve discovered is I tend to like the smaller, character-driven shows much more than those that rely on costume- or set-driven spectacle more than story. Seeing the chandelier swinging perilously above the stage during Phantom is certainly awe-inspiring, but it doesn’t make me think like the debate of art vs. entertainment in La Bête, and it doesn’t chill me like the rocking chair in The Woman in Black, and it doesn’t break my heart like Stephen Wraysford does in Birdsong.

The exception to this rule for me, I think, is Wicked, which I’ve been able to see twice here in Kansas City, and which relies on an amazing set, an epic story, but doesn’t neglect to give the audience a character in which to invest fully.  Les Misérables comes close for me, especially with Éponine, but there’s so much going on, and our loyalties are spread across so many different characters, that it’s hard to fully invest in any one character.

Beyond these elements, one thing that utterly fascinates me about theatre is that no performance, especially in the smaller, character-driven plays, is ever the same. The energy the audience brings to the theatre can change everything. I consider myself lucky for having the opportunity to see Birdsong the second time when four actors were out sick, including Lee Ross, who plays probably the second most important role in the second and third acts. (And yes, I feel bad for saying I’m lucky that four poor people were under the weather, and I hope they recovered very quickly and were able to return to their roles refreshed and invigorated, etc., etc.)

What this afforded me was the opportunity to see the same scenes, delivered with the same lines (or close enough that I couldn’t pinpoint a difference), play in entirely different ways.  With a play as emotionally complex as Birdsong, you get different reactions from different audiences to certain scenes anyway.  What strikes one group of people as funny strikes another as awkward. What makes one audience swoon makes another snicker a little.  And in the same audience, you have people familiar with the novel on which the play is based who have more context for what’s happening on stage, which also affects their perception of what the actors are doing.

Mild spoilers follow.

One scene in particular, in which the only two characters on stage are Stephen Wraysford, played by Ben Barnes, and Jack Firebrace, played in the first performance by Lee Ross and in the second by understudy Billy Carter, drove home the malleability of theatre.  The scene takes place as the men are trapped in a tunnel forty feet below the ground, with no supplies, limited air supply, and no hope to get out.

In the first performance, the scene was extremely tense with no let-up, either for the actors or the audience. In the second performance, whether it was something brought by the audience or supplied by Mr. Carter, the delivery of a line sparked laughter from the audience. Mr. Barnes then altered his performance in a small ways to play within the energy of the scene, as created on that specific night. Both versions of the scene worked extremely well, and it was utterly fascinating to watch the collaboration between actors and audience (and even just between actors). I’m incredibly grateful to have seen it.

I’m still trying to work out what exactly this means for me as a writer. Is there a lesson to be taken? I imagine the thought of a scene playing in entirely different ways — and thus perhaps quite differently than originally conceived — might horrify some writers. Personally, I find it exhilarating to know that there’s life yet to be imagined from lines once they’re set on a page. I was able to experience the phenomenon in the tiniest of ways whilst filming LiaE (see No. 4 here), and it was perhaps one of the most exciting parts of the directing experience.

As for the act of writing itself, perhaps the lesson to be taken is that there is a benefit in imagining scenes on the page interpreted in different ways. In prose, this can help the writer modify passages to make them less emotionally ambiguous. In screenwriting and playwriting, doing so might benefit the story by revealing opportunities to inject a little something you hadn’t realized was there in the first place.

The main point I know I can take away is how much I love the unique beast that is theatre. There’s no other medium that allows for such synergy of elements delivered by story, actors and audience. I’m hoping to experience it more fully in 2012, both in front of and behind the curtain.

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