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2011: My Year in Review
This has been a really strange year, in which time has both flown and stood still. I don’t really understand how that can be possible, but I’ve never been one for quantum physics, so there you have it. I was really a little worried going into this year-end review, because as rough as 2010 felt creatively, 2011 definitely felt rougher on pretty much all fronts.
Here is my great confession for 2011: I spent the summer in as severe a depression as I’ve ever been through, and I am not being dramatic when I tell you it was probably the scariest phase of my life. I couldn’t write. I couldn’t focus. I couldn’t bring myself to do any sort of workout other than running. I couldn’t go an entire day without crying. And I could not for the life of me figure out how to fix it. None of my previously successful tools were working. I had six vials of blood drawn because I had doctors run every possible test to see if there was a medical reason for my inability to get myself out of that place. And never has the news that I am in perfect health been so distressing. I’m not sure what happened to finally lift me out of it, but I suspect it was a combination of:
- a change in diet (I went gluten-free, or close to it, for several months),
- a change in perspective (“this too shall pass,” and that I cannot and should not try to control other people’s reactions, and that as long as I am doing my best in regards to right action and right speech, I can let go),
- getting the news about my script reaching the AFF semifinals,
- and eventually sheer stubbornness.
I wish I had been brave enough to reach out to more people than I did, to talk about what I was going through, but that is one of the terrible things about depression — it tricks you out of wanting the things you need most. I’m lucky; I got through it.
Even though I’m grateful to have made it over that hurdle, I was feeling pretty despondent about doing my year-end creative review since I’d had such a long dry spell. So, it was a huge relief when I went back and actually listed everything I’d done on that front and saw it wasn’t quite as bad as I’d feared. But the truth is I didn’t meet many of the big goals I set for myself last year.
- I didn’t query any of my scripts (though I got lucky with the Austin Film Festival picking up some of that slack for me) or my children’s story.
- I didn’t do ScriptFrenzy because I was desperately (and unsuccessfully) reworking a script to resubmit to the BlueCat Fellini Screenplay Competition.
- That script was the still-enigmatic M. Valentine. And I will break that thing one day. But this was sadly not the year (though I did get a tiny consolation when it made the quarterfinals of that competition, considering how terribly, terribly clunky I thought it was).
- I did not write a stage play.
- I didn’t quite see something I wrote produced, but I am currently post-producing something I wrote, so I’m willing to call that one a draw.
So that’s the bad. But the rest is pretty good.
I got my house in order, or as close to it as I feel it needs to be. I no longer have a junk room (or rooms, as the case may have been), and this, my friends, is a definite win.
I hit my film-watching goals, and I read a ton of books this year, compared to usual, topping out at 34. Highlights there, in case you’re looking for something to read:
- The Hunger Games Trilogy
- Ender’s Saga + Ender’s Shadow
- The Paris Wife
- One Day
- The Help
- The Principles of Uncertainty
- Incendiary
- Sarah’s Key
- The Night Circus
- The Invention of Hugo Cabret
I visited three new places.
Council Bluffs, Iowa: Where I got to watch and listen to the Monkees rocking it out, albeit from behind a fence, because it was unbeknownst to us a 21-and-over show, and my sister was not 21-and-over. I also got to meet my friend Matt for the first time since we made our acquaintance, what, 4 years ago? It’s always nice to find you can sit down with people you converse with all the time across the internet and have pretty much the exact same rapport when you’re sitting across a table in a smelly, grimy casino restaurant.
New Orleans, Louisiana: Where I caught an eyeful on Bourbon Street, ate All The Desserts, had my fortune told in front of St. Louis Cathedral, made friends with strangers, and listened to some fantastic jazz. Bonus: In an amazingly serendipitous occurrence, one of my old friends from high school (whom I hadn’t seen since) happened to be passing through, and thanks to twitter, we got to sit down and catch up over some beignets & gumbo.

The woman on the right was very concerned for my emotional welfare because I was sight-seeing solo. "If you don't have any friends, you should make some! Preferably a guy!" she told me.

This street jazz band had just set up, and it was too early for the New Orleans crowds, so I asked them to play me a song, any song they liked. They chose "When You're Smilin'," and insisted on flagging down another tourist to take a picture of me with them. A perfect example of the Spirit of New Orleans.
Austin, Texas: I’ve written about my amazing experience at the Austin Film Festival here, but the thing I keep going back to is the great folks I met. I get a little thrill of delight every time an e-mail or tweet pops up from one of my fellow festival attendees. Bonus: I also got to catch up with a couple of friends who had moved away whilst there. Austin’s a great city, a place for hippies and hipsters and artists of all sorts. I’m definitely hoping to head back for the festival again next year.

After a full day of panels and films, nearing the end of the Wrap Party somewhere around 1 or 2 a.m., Jess, Jarrod, Nate, and Bleary-Eyed-Barely-Standing-Not-Used-To-This-Sort-of-Schedule Me
There were some other pretty neat things about 2011, too.

My team won third place in a 3v3 corporate basketball tournament, which is pretty cool considering I hadn't played since my freshman year of high school & probably half of the team had never played more than recreationally, if at all, beyond this tournament. I also survived a 3v3 soccer tournament as the only bonafide soccer player, including the last few games with two players, and then me + an injured player. That was fun.

I ran in two 5Ks, and I ran three events in my first track meet ever. This picture is from the Thanksgiving 5K after my sister & I spent literally an hour trying to find my car.

We picked out bridesmaids dresses for my middle sister's wedding this coming July (they'll be black), and even more exciting, we helped my sister pick out her wedding dress. As a big sister, that's a pretty neat thing.

This is where I learned to suspend myself from a nylon ribbon attached to the ceiling thanks to an aerial acrobatics class. It is also where I came to terms with the fact that, despite considering myself a pretty athletic chick, anything that requires grace and poise just doesn't come naturally. Give me something I can throw, punch or kick, though, and I'm good!

I learned humility by losing to all of my family members at mini-golf. I may also have sent the ball careening off the green like six times. These things happen.

I learned that I do not have the patience for pottery, but I still made these, and that's kind of cool.
As I said, the creative front wasn’t as awful as I’d feared going into the review either.
Recognitions
- 2011 CS Open Round 2 Qualifier (Top 100 Entrants from Round 1)
- 2011 BlueCat Fellini Quarterfinalist – MONSIEUR VALENTINE
- 2011 Austin Film Festival Screenplay Competition Semifinalist (Comedy Feature) – ‘TIL DEATH PARTS US
Creative Achievements
I worked on five screenplays.
- Rewrote M. VALENTINE twice.
- Polished TDPU.
- Polished MUTE.
- Wrote a draft zero of JOLENE.
- Outlined and started writing SOUNDS OF SILENCE.
I wrote seven film-related posts.
I wrote and posted 13 short pieces, and wrote at least 3.5 unposted short stories and a couple handfuls of unposted poems:
- [short fiction] Notice
- [short fiction] Frogs
- [short fiction] Contained Heart™
- [short fiction] Fire
- [short fiction] The Knight & the Dragon
- [memoir] A Valentine’s Reflection
- [memoir] This Recipe Will Change Your Life
- [memoir] Fortune #3
- [memoir] Perspective on a White Hair
- [memoir] Reunion
- [memoir] A Farewell to Borders
- [memoir] Pottery #1
- [poetry] Primitive Telemetry
I wrote three short scenes for competitions, one of which I might like to expand at some point.
I wrote a bad novel in November.
My sister and I interviewed and filmed people talking about their Valentine’s Day experiences — good, bad, funny & sweet.
And last but definitely not least, I wrote and directed a short film, STILL, which I am currently editing.

Thanks to my DP, Amy; my make-up artist, Kate; my gorgeous statue jilted bride, Meg; and my persevering, resilient human statue, Mike.
All in all, it was a really bizarrely terrible and wonderful year. I’m not sure I’ve ever had such a rollercoaster 365 days before, but I wouldn’t trade it. Here are a few things I’ve learned.
- When life gets too overwhelming, there is no better temporary escape than into a good book.
- There is nothing as resilient as the human spirit. People survive the worst horrors and still find a way to see beauty in the world. Our only responsibility is to keep trying.
- Life never gets less complicated, so there’s no use waiting ’til it does. I think the key is this: As much as you can, choose complications that bring you joy.
No Year in Review post would be complete without some goals for the coming year. I’ve got some other year-long initiatives that I might detail in a future post, but for now, here are the big goals.
- Write three spec scripts.
- Write twelve short stories/pieces.
- Participate in NaNoWriMo.
- Finish STILL and submit to festivals.
- Submit scripts to Nicholl, Austin and BlueCat.
- Visit three new and/or awesome places.
- Read 24 books.
- Watch 200 films.
FYI, I used these two fantastic guides for my own year-end review.
- For Life: Nicole is Better’s 6-Step Process, Eff Yeah List, & Goal-Setting Template for the Obsessively Type-A & 100% Crazy
- For Writing & Creative Stuff: Go Into the Story’s Writing Goals Series
That’s it! Did you guys do any sort of year-end review? Favorite moments of 2011? Things you’re most looking forward to in 2012? I’d love to hear about them!
Ditty’s Favorite Movies of 2011
It’s that time of year! Once again, I’ll point out that these are not necessarily the movies that I’d say were the critical best, but they’re the movies that I enjoyed the most. Also, the order is roughly from favorite to most favorite, but it tends to vary pretty widely with my mood. So don’t read too much into it. In short, these are movies that got to me in some way, shape or form, and that’s why they’re on this list. So, with that disclaimer, here we go!
THE BEAVER
Writer: Kyle Killen / Director: Jody Foster
This film really seems to split audiences. I don’t know if I was helped going in by the fact that I’d read the screenplay, since it was being marketed as a dark comedy instead of the drama that it is. Some have argued that the puppet concept made the profile of a man with severe depression too outlandish to be taken seriously. For me, it put enough distance between real life and fiction that I was able to connect with it like a fable — I could immerse myself in the story in ways that might have been too uncomfortable otherwise. The truth is, people with depression all cope in different ways — many times destructively. The puppet was just that — a coping mechanism. I thought the film was an accurate and heartbreaking examination of depression, not only how it affects those who suffer from the condition but also how it might affect family and friends. For that reason, I for one am very grateful it exists.
FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS
Writers: Keith Merryman & David A. Newman and Will Gluck / Director: Will Gluck
OK, let me preface this with the fact that I am a fan of the Romantic Comedy. I fully acknowledge that most of them are less than great. I still see most of them, because I’m always hoping for the next Great One. This year’s FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS was the best traditional romantic comedy I’ve seen in a long time, and by traditional, I mean it’s not cross-genre or an indie, and it hits all the beats you’ve seen before and expect. The difference here is that this one does it whilst poking fun at itself, focusing on character and heart, and with the incredibly important benefit of great chemistry between the leads. It’s fun, it’s funny, it’s sweet, and its characters are people I care about and root for.
BRIDESMAIDS
Writer: Kristen Wiig & Annie Mumolo / Director: Paul Feig
People seem to think this movie was unique because it was an R-rated comedy featuring a cast of mainly women. What really made it unique was that it was a female-driven comedy with loads of character development and heart. The fact that it was R-rated really had nothing to do with what made BRIDESMAIDS special. Kristen Wiig turns in a delightfully cringe-worthy and surprisingly heartfelt performance, Melissa McCarthy walks away with every scene she’s in, and Chris O’Dowd wins over not only Wiig’s Annie but the entire audience with his charming Irish brogue, dweebish sweetness & dry sense of humor. In a year filled with comedies that seemed to be more interested in raunch than anything else, this film went for heart first — and that made it the best of the bunch.
CRAZY STUPID LOVE
Writer: Dan Fogelman / Director: Glenn Ficarra, John Requa
While the ensemble isn’t as large as, say, LOVE ACTUALLY, this here is an ensemble romantic comedy that really, really works — or at least it did for me. And I’m not just saying that because of Ryan Gosling. Or Emma Stone. (But let’s face it — they’re both fantastic.) While it veers a little wacky and even a little uncomfortably inappropriate at times, CRAZY STUPID LOVE still managed to tug my heart strings enough to make me break down in copious tears whilst sitting between two strangers in a theatre. Awkward. Seriously, though, you’ve got Steve Carrell doing what Steve Carrell does best — playing a socially awkward but totally sweet magoo. The supporting cast is excellent, featuring Julianne Moore and Marisa Tomei. And it has one of the best twists I saw all year — in a romantic comedy no less! So, if you’re a fan of the genre, or of Ryan Gosling’s abs, do check this one out.
MIDNIGHT IN PARIS
Writer/Director: Woody Allen
I love Woody Allen. I love Paris. I love literature. I love bohemian philosophy. There’s pretty much no way I wasn’t going to love this film. Whimsical, dryly humorous, existential in a down-to-earth way, and sneakily hopeful… It’s what Woody Allen does best, in my opinion.
THE ARTIST
Writer/Director: Michel Hazanavicius
I knew I’d love this film from the moment I saw the trailer. A silent, black & white film about a silent film star who reaches the height of his career just as the silent film era is coming to an end, THE ARTIST is a gorgeous, clever exploration of a man’s downward spiral — and whether or not he can find redemption in a new medium and in life. It’s fascinating watching silent film acting, as everything must be said with expressions instead of with words. As a writer, it’s a good reminder that film is first and foremost a visual medium when it’s easy to be lazy with dialog. Show, don’t tell and all that jazz. Another thing it forces, though, is for the audience to really look at a character. You have a chance to become immersed in what’s happening, to fill in the silence with your own understanding, and that’s a really cool experience in this day and age. I’d love to see more silent films, to be honest, but the key (like 3D) is using it to serve the story rather than as a simple gag. THE ARTIST does it well.
THE ADJUSTMENT BUREAU
Writer/Director: George Nolfi
This movie broke my heart and then put it back together. It is also the movie I discussed most for a good six months after it came out. The chemistry between Emily Blunt and Matt Damon is electric, and it’s the romance between their characters that really makes this movie memorable more than the sci-fi/fantasy elements — though I found the philosophy behind them really interesting as well.
ANOTHER EARTH
Writer: Brit Marling, Mike Cahill / Director: Mike Cahill
This microbudget film was one of the most compelling of the year. When another earth is discovered, a young woman who made a terrible mistake several years ago, ruining not only her life but several others, too, has a chance to see if her life on Earth 2 turned out differently. What follows is a heart-wrenching story of the search for redemption, forgiveness, and purpose. Also worth noting, this film has my favorite last shot of a film all year long, if not in the past several years.
HUGO
Writer: John Logan / Director: Martin Scorsese
There’s no doubt that this is a film for film-lovers, but there’s so much more to HUGO than just that. If you go in expecting the fare you get from most children’s films these days — bombastic, gag-filled, superficial “entertainment” — you’ll either be disappointed or thrilled depending on how you feel about such movies. Fair warning, not all kids are going to love this movie if that’s the sort of thing they’re used to seeing. But it’s the kind of movie all kids should be growing up on, in my opinion. In some ways, this film’s whimsy and wonder reminded me of AMÉLIE. It features rich characters and beautiful cinematography. It is the only film where I’ve ever thought the 3D was worthwhile. If you have the chance to see it in 3D, I highly, highly recommend it. Even if you don’t, movies like this deserve to be seen, and I highly encourage you to do so.
BEGINNERS
Writer/Director: Mike Mills
I talked about this movie in more detail over at the No-Name Movie Blog, but here’s a quick excerpt:
“Beginnings are always hard, because in each of them, we are always cast as beginners — inexperienced, unknowing, and even fearful. It’s entirely understandable that we want to avoid them. The idea of having to start over is often scarier than clinging to the vestiges of something long gone by. But it’s the beginning again (and again, and again) that really defines the act of living.
And this is the message BEGINNERS delivered to me, in its quirky and light-hearted way, at a time when I needed to hear it. It’s a good message no matter where you are or what you’re dealing with in life, because sooner or later, things do end, and it’s nice to remember there’s magic in beginning again.”
HONORABLE MENTIONS
(in no particular order)
Jeff, Who Lives At Home
(I’m almost positive this will make my Top 10 list next year. I didn’t include it this year since it technically doesn’t come out ’til 2012. I was lucky enough to see it at the Austin Film Festival.)
Like Crazy
The Muppets
50/50
We Bought a Zoo
Don’t Be Afraid of the Dark
Attack the Block
That’s the list! I still haven’t seen a couple of contenders, like THE GIRL WITH THE DRAGON TATTOO and WAR HORSE, which I have a feeling will have a shot at at least being added to my honorable mentions. What about you all? Favorite movies of 2011, GO!
My Most Anticipated Movies of 2011
New year, new movies to look forward to. Last year I stuck to movies that were guaranteed a U.S. release, but this year I’m branching back out because, hey, that’s just how I feel like doing it in 2011. I also couldn’t narrow my list down to 10, so I’m giving you 12, which took enough effort in and of itself. (If you’re keeping track, they’re in order of U.S. release, and then alphabetical after that.)
RANGO
March 4
Writer: John Logan / Director: Gore Verbinski
If this film is half as fun as the behind-the-scenes featurette, I’ll be well-pleased. It’s a fish-out-of-water story about a chameleon with dreams of being a swashbuckling hero falling into a situation where he actually has to pretend to be one. The animation looks bright and unique, and the film feels like it has a little bit of a FIEVEL GOES WEST tone to the whole thing, which is a very good thing in my book.
PAUL
March 18
Writers: Nick Frost & Simon Pegg / Director: Greg Mottola
Honestly, if this weren’t Nick Frost & Simon Pegg, I’d probably be a lot less interested. The premise of two British comic-book geeks finding an alien outside Area 51 strikes me in about the same way as those for HOT FUZZ and SHAUN OF THE DEAD did. They didn’t sound particularly bad; they just didn’t really sound like something I wanted to run out and see. And then I saw them and learned that I was crazy, because both those movies are awesome. I’m hoping PAUL will prove much the same.
SCREAM 4
April 15
Writer: Kevin Williamson / Director: Wes Craven
The original SCREAM was one of the first horror movies to make a dent in my psyche, and it’s probably my favorite of the genre of all time because of its ability to balance satire and horror without becoming farce. The sequels didn’t fare so well in that endeavor. But it’s been 15 years since we first met Sydney Prescott, and there should be plenty of fresh material to mine. Here’s hoping anyway.
WATER FOR ELEPHANTS
April 22
Writer: Richard LaGravenese / Director: Francis Lawrence
Based on Sara Gruen’s novel (which, interestingly, started out as a NaNoWriMo novel), this film looks like it’s got a bit of a BIG FISH feel to it. The trailer suggests it’ll be a visually stunning film, and it’ll be nice to see Robert Pattinson breaking out of his TWILIGHT role with something other than indie melodrama (not to mention Christopher Waltz getting the opportunity to chew some villainous scenery again).
PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN: ON STRANGER TIDES
May 20
Writers: Ted Elliott & Terry Rossio / Director: Rob Marshall
I seem to be in the minority who actually thought the third installment of the Pirates franchise was pretty decent. That being said, it seems like they’re getting back to the simpler, adventure-story roots of the first film, with Captains Jack and Barbossa on a quest for the fountain of youth. I’ll watch Johnny Depp in anything, and as a big fan of the franchise, I’m pretty optimistic about this one.
LARRY CROWNE
July 1
Writers: Tom Hanks & Nia Vardalos / Director: Tom Hanks
While the story itself (that of a man who loses his job and then reinvents himself by going back to college) feels fairly standard, it’s the people behind it that make this a movie I’m really looking forward to seeing. I always love seeing Tom Hanks and Julia Roberts on screen, and this feels like a good (if potentially predictable) choice for them to do what they do best: humorous and heartwarming.
HARRY POTTER & THE DEATHLY HALLOWS: PART 2
July 15
Writer: Steve Kloves / Director: David Yates
First off, is this poster intense or what? Geez. Anyway, as a fan of both the books and movies, there’s no way this wasn’t going to be on my list. The franchise really is nothing less than a phenomenon, and seeing how both the films and actors have grown in maturity and talent has been fascinating. I’m almost sorry to see the franchise end, but I’m also excited to see what Daniel Radcliffe, Emma Watson and Rupert Grint do next.
THE MUPPETS
November 23
Writers: Jason Segel and Nicholas Stoller / Director: James Bobin
The puppet rock opera in FORGETTING SARAH MARSHALL convinced me that Jason Segel was the perfect person to write the next Muppets movie. And then Hollywood read my mind, and all was well. There’s a very MUPPETS TAKE MANHATTAN feel to this story, which centers on the Muppets’ biggest fan convincing them to come out of retirement to save their old theatre. Feels perfect for their return to the big screen.
HUGO CABRET
December 9
Writer: John Logan / Director: Martin Scorcese
A film based on a whimsical children’s mystery novel about an orphan living inside the walls of a 1930s Paris train station is perhaps the very last project I would have guessed for Scorcese, and that makes me very excited about it.
A DANGEROUS METHOD
Writer: Christopher Hampton (play) / Director: David Cronenberg
Any reteaming of David Cronenberg and Viggo Mortensen’s going to catch my attention, and there’s no denying that Sigmund Freud is one of the more fascinating individuals in the history of the world. I’m looking forward to seeing what they do with the story.
KILLING BONO
Writers: Ben Bond, Dick Clement, Ian La Frenais, Simon Maxwell / Director: Nick Hamm
Based on the true story of music journalist Neil McCormick, who dreamt of becoming a global rock star with his brother — problem being that they were competing directly with their schoolmates, who went on to become U2. This film looks almost like a mash-up of ALMOST FAMOUS meets SPINAL TAP. The costumes alone look hilarious and horrifying, and the snippets of music I’ve heard suggest this soundtrack will also get a fair amount of play on my iPod this year. Perhaps not quite what Mr. McCormick had in mind in his youth, but having your life made into a movie (even one that’s all about taking the piss out of you) can’t be all bad.
THE WOMAN IN BLACK
Writer: Jane Goldman / Director: James Watkins
I saw the stage adaptation of Susan Hill’s novel twice this past year — once on each of my trips to London. Having read the screenplay for the upcoming film, I can say that they are really two entirely different beasts. While it’s not really anything like the stage play I love so much, I think the film will shape up to be a good, solid mood-spooky-horror film, in the vein of THE OTHERS or THE ORPHANAGE.
That’s it for me. What movies are you all looking forward to in 2011?































