At the end of last year, I took part in the #reverb10 challenge and got a lot out of it. Ever since, they’ve been sending monthly #reverb11 prompts, which always make me think, but which I haven’t yet taken advantage of actually responding to via the written word. Today, though, I’m feeling reflective, so I’m going to take advantage of my forum here because, well, writers write.
If you participated in Reverb10 during December of last year, are any of the things you wanted to manifest in 2011 revealing themselves?
In short, yes, but not necessarily the things I expected. (Funny how that works, innit?) It has been a rather frustrating year on the writing front so far, but I feel like I’ve experienced other aspects of life more fully than I have in a long time. And the most important and wonderful thing I’ve learned is this:
In this life, we can live and act in fear or in passion. Fear looks like safety because it numbs us from the potential of pain — but it’s not a localized anesthetic, and so we give up the experience of exultant joy, too. Passion, on the other hand, is dangerous. It is filled with risk. Every sensation is heightened. In one moment it can feel as if your heart is being forcibly torn from your chest, and in the next it seems like it might swell to such magnitude that your body can barely contain it. Passion is never safe, and it is always intense.
I wasn’t entirely sure I was capable of living with such intensity anymore, but it turns out the heart is incredibly resilient if we can find the courage to give it the opportunity. If I learn nothing else all year, I am grateful I’ve been able to discover this.