Oh, hi there.
You know how Woody Allen never watches his films once they’re completed because nothing ever lives up to the vision of the story he had in his head? Well, I get that. I was so excited to start on my current (not sure how apt that word is, given I haven’t worked on it at all since March) script. I’d watched the key scenes in my head, had even been brought to tears by some of them. But when I started placing words on the page, it all fell apart. Compared to what I’d envisioned, it was just… bad. Which, of course, is what first drafts typically are — bad. But I think I was too in love with the story when I started, and seeing a lesser version of it was disheartening. I’ll get back to it, maybe even sooner rather than later, but I’ve been in a funk for week because of it. And continuing to grow my collection of nos for STILL hasn’t exactly helped.
I’ve still been writing, of course. Freelance work has been keeping me busy, and while that is great and awesome and I would happily welcome more of it, the dark clouds always loom closer when I’m not writing my own stories. The artwork I’ve been producing has been keeping them at bay for the most part, but it’s time to get back on the wagon.
So I’m committing to writing every day in May. Writing on my own stuff, that is. It might be the script. It might be a short story. It might be another idea I’ve been tossing about in my head. But whatever it is, on any given day, I’m going to write.
It’s not quite as scary as NaNoWriMo was back in November, but it’s still a little daunting given the lack of concrete ideas I’ve had lately. But NaNoWriMo was a creative kickstart for me, and I’m hoping my own personal Camp NaNoWriMo in May will have the same effect. And when in doubt…
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